Free Verse

Summer . . . the time to let it all go.

To chase everything you feel, you want, you need, you desire.

It’s almost as though the sun gives you confidence.

It makes you believe just maybe this time things will work,

that all you could hope for would be right there beside you.

The truth is, I learned a hard lesson this summer.

I learned that even on the warmest day of July it could feel as though it were about to snow
It’s July, you feel as though these summer fireworks are going off everywhere

like nothing could get better,

but then that fireworks display is suddenly over, and all you're left thinking is,

"is it true things couldn’t get any worse?"
You come to realize people don’t always mean what they say

in the way you understand it.

And coming to terms with this reality might just seem impossible.

So now its August, and you’ve finally realized that fireworks display was a meer thunderclap in the distance,

That those things you believed,

The way you thought you heard them,

Were just misled fireflies fading off as the summer was ending.
Summers almost gone now,

You chased what you felt you wanted and needed.

You risked it.

You put yourself out there and you did it.

But the mission was completed. . . or was it?

If there’s one thing you learned this summer its that new friendships came easy.

And I'm not talking the short term, "hello-goodbye" kind.

I’m beginning to question that in this risk I took, I made this new. . friend.

A friend who had this smile, this laugh, this openness about him that made me feel as though I could explode with my deepest secrets and fears,

And by my own amazement they would be understood.
They wouldn’t be judged, they would be smiled at.

They would be considered rather than forgotten about.

I felt as though that original risk showed me what I really needed.

Its September

The weather is changing

The sun doesn’t exactly give you confidence, but the brisker winds find a way to give you strength.

There’s no question now,

That smile, that laugh, that honesty, is what I wanted more than anything.

I almost feel foolish to have made the wrong decision all summer,

But just like a small ant in this big world, I'm willing to fight for what I so deeply want.

Those smiles become the sunshine of your day,

Those laughs become the extra strength you need to fight for what you want.

In this moment I realized,

After all the years of people telling me that everything happens for a reason,

There was finally a time I could believe that.

I could have faith in the fact that everything that happened that summer, happened for one very clear reason.

To lead me to that smile, that laugh, that look, those eyes.

I’ve gotten everything I ever wanted and then some.